Long distance

With you is where I'd rather be
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard, you're so far
This long distance is killing me
I wish that you were here with me
But we're stuck where we are
And it's so hard ,you're so far
This long distance is killing me


I should be letting go. ♥


I'm tired

Secondhand Serenade - Your Call

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)


Jag blir så ledsen...

(Vill bara framföra att detta är inget rasistiskt inlägg, bara så det faktiskt är)

När jag ser hur samhället styrs idag av de småfolken, det vill säga alla ungar.
Förr i tiden, när jag var liten, lekte ALLA med alla. Många av oss bodde på en "gård", de vill säga två lägenhetshus som står mitt i mot varandra med en lekgård i mitten. Många av oss var också svenskar och kände varandra utan och innan. Men det fanns ändå människor från andra kulturer - vi respekterade dem.

Det roliga är på den tiden, oavsett från vilket land du kom från eller hur gammal du var, så accepterade och respekterade alla varandra. Vi lekte kurragömma, tjuv och polis, vi cyklade tillsammans, vi gjorde ALLT tillsammans. Till och med föräldrarna anordnade kräftskiva mitt på gården med ett långt bord och partytält och grillar så man kunde umgås! Vi gjorde allting tillsammans och hade enormt kul, en riktig barndom om jag får säga!

Det som får mig att skriva det här är en sak som hände idag. Fram tills detta året så har allt mer av de svenska peepsen jag hängde med förr i tiden, driftat iväg. De har antingen flyttat, jobbar eller bara gör andra saker. Istället har det kommit in många utländska barn som har en helt annan attityd än det vi hade. 

Idag, så gick min lillebror Wictor som är endast 4 år gammal och älskar att umgås och leka med andra barn, över till våran GRANNE. Våran granne har två barn och de är från utlandet. Där var även två andra barn som också är från utlandet och när jag kom ut på vår altan ser jag dem knuffa på honom. De ser att jag står där men fortsätter och säger "gå härifrån", "det här är inte ditt hem", "Gå nu Wictor". Då säger våran andra granne "men låt honom vara med att leka för fan!" och de står och kollar på henne som idioter. Sedan säger de "men kom igen Wictor vi vill inte leka med dig!" Det gjorde mig rätt så arg så jag sa "man är inte så elak mot varandra, alla får leka med alla, så är det!" Och då säger fan me en av ungarna "Okej då, alla spelar fotboll utom Wictor, han får inte vara med!". Det var droppen för mig så jag sa "Kom nu Wictor, du förtjänar inte att leka med såna här skitungar!" och han kom. Tanken slog mig då, var vi såhär mot varandra förr? Inget minne av. Jag har ALDRIG varit med om att någon har sagt att jag inte får vara med av våran grupp när jag var liten. ALDRIG. Och det här bara händer framför ögonen på mig TROTS att två sa till? Bara sekunder senare när vi har gått in öppnar dem vår grind, släpper ut min hund och vi har parkering bakom och står sedan i deras trädgård och "voffar" på Diva så hon skäller. 

Det här är inget jag lägger ut på just utländska, för svenskar kan vara skitstövlar mot varandra. Det jag menar är att när jag var liten var vi mest svenskar i alla åldrar. Idag är det med utländska i en rätt jämn ålder som går ihop i grupper och stöter ut varandra. Det är INTE okej! Det är hemskt att se att barn redan börjar med sånt i 4-6 åldern. Vad hände där? Det som också stör mig är att med tiden så slutade kräftskivorna och alla blev främlingar mot varandra...

Om du är en förälder som läser det här, kolla till hur dina barn uppför sig mot andra! Barn ska inte behöva bli deprimerade och utstötta redan i den åldern...

never alone

I want to run on a road
A road that takes me beyond everything
Because whenever I do something,
whenever I trust myself,
when I really want to do my best,
I fail.

If the running keeps my train of thoughts away,
if the road is empty but still another way to end the failing,
I would without a doubt take that road.
Because when I feel strong, I'm weak. 
And when I'm weak, I'm just being weak.
And when I rise, there's a power that helps me.

I don't like being weak, but when it comes to sad endings,
there's nothing I can do.
But when I'm on the bottom, whem I'm touching the ground,
It reminds me of everytime I've been climbing up to the top.
It reminds me that there's always faith, always hope,
And there's always someone that loves you and pray for you.

So I shall rise again,
I will fall to the bottom again and when I do that,
I'll start climbing because that will help me grow stronger.
When I fall, I don't have to start climb from scratch.
I just get a little bit more strength each time I need to get to the top,
And I get a little bit weaker everytime I'm falling.

But when that day comes, I don't need to worry.
Cause I'm like a flower.
I need the sun and water to grow,
and that's everything I need.
Sometimes I wish the clock could stop so I could get som rest.
There's nothing but happiness,
When you want to be happy.
Never forget that theres always someone there
and you are never alone.

Longing

I knew there was something special about you
But I didn’t see that the first time I saw you
But somehow in some strange way
I felt a gentle tug in my heart
I don’t know how, I don’t know why
It may be the way you smile
It may be the way you look
Either way, I realized I was beginning to like you
I started wishing… I started dreaming…
The feeling is something I’ve never felt before
It’s a wonderful feeling that sometimes makes me smile
It’s a feeling that makes me all jumpy inside
But it’s also a feeling that makes me want to cry
I’ve watched you from a distance
And I’ve longed for a single smile
But all you ever gave me is longing
My heart aches every time I hear you sing
Coz you sound so beautiful
I feel warm every time I see you smile
My heart beats faster every time you walk by
I don’t wanna say I’m crazy about you
I don’t wanna I’m falling for you
Coz it hurts to know that I would never mean anything to you
And it hurts even more to know there’s nothing I can do
Sometimes it makes me so sad
But still, I can’t stop thinking of you
I can’t say I love you, I can’t say I do
For I don’t even know you
And even if I wanted to… say a thing or two
There’s no way I can get through
So I guess I’ll just be admiring you from a distance
I can’t even look at you as much as I want to
There are a lot of things I don’t understand
A lot of questions I don’t have answers to
But one thing I know for sure
I may mean nothing to you
But boy, I’m glad to know you!
And no matter how stupid this feeling can get
I’m never ashamed to admit it’s true
Coz no matter how hopeless, no matter how painful
God knows I’m happy there’s you..



That was then, this is now

How often we must bear the challenges of life;
The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow;
The constant ups and downs of daily strife.
And always the question remains .... why?

Life is not an easy road for most;
It twists and turns with many forks in the road,
Although always, and inevitably, we are given a choice ...

Do we turn to the right ... or the left?
Do we take the high road ... or the low road?
Do we take the easy path ... or the difficult one?

Decisions are not easy for those struggling for direction ...
And sometimes the many choices and signs become overwhelming.

While standing at a crossroads in life,
The urge is to take the most comfortable path;
The road with least resistance ...
The shortest or most traveled route.

And yet, if we've been down that comfortable road before;
Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from our experiences;

Do we yet again follow the known?
Or does our destiny lie in another direction?

The fear of the road less traveled is tangible and all too real;
It manifests itself in many ways,
And tends to cloud the issues that might otherwise be clear.

It is in these times of confusion,
That we must seek peace and solitude;

Time to contemplate on our life,
Our experiences and our choices past;
Time to look back, and reflect on what we have learned
Without fear or confusion.

For only each of us knows our own personal thoughts;
Our unique past and personal history;
The experiences that brought us to the crossroads we now face.

We can always learn a small degree from others experiences,
And yet ... no one person can walk in our shoes,
Others know not, the trials and tribulations faced in private ...

For each is individual ... unique ... and personal.

And that is why ... while standing at a crossroads,
Only "we" can formulate the decision for ourselves;
The true direction that lies within;
The choices we must deliberate on with clarity and wisdom.

For it is only through personal reflection,
That we can now choose our destiny;
... Our next adventure;
... And the future we will embrace.

I can see the flower upon which my life grows, blooming into a rose.

See the hope and courage in the strength of the petals.
As long as I am, I will be.
The flower will never wilt or die.
As my life grows back, I shall become strong.
I shall become only dependent on one.
That one will be me.
I will rise with my petals high.
My life as a flower will bloom and prosper as I grow.
I may not be the pick of the patch, but I am just as beautiful as the rest.

I will stand as one, but not a lonely soul.
The tears will be far from my smile.


Best love song

T-Pain ft. Chris Brown - Best love song
Turn off the bass, turn up the treble,
I'm about to take you to a whole other level!
Dj turn off what you're playing,
I want the whole club to hear what I'm saying!
Because this girl means too much to me,
And now we're on the floor and she touching me.
And if I wanna take her home
It's gonna be better than what they do on the radio!
It's gotta be the crunkest!
It's gotta be the loudest!
It's gotta be the best,
The best love song she ever heard in her life,
I gotta tell her how I feel,
I gotta let her hear,
The best love song she ever heard in her life
No need for me to write,
I just gotta picture her smiling,
And if you feel that way, go ahead and kiss your baby!
And now we've got the whole stadium in love!
Like eh eh eh eh
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/t/t_pain/best_love_song.html ]
Turn off the lights, give me the mic!
I'm about to sing and do it just how she likes.
Jump off the stage, crowd surfing all the way
COWABUNGA
You know it's right, just do the wave,
Girl just move your body like a snake
And if you wanna get with me,
Put your hands in the air, show me that energy!
Chorus:
It's gotta be the crunkest!
It's gotta be the loudest!
It's gotta be the best,
The best love song she ever heard!
I gotta tell her how I feel,
I gotta let her hear, the best love song she ever heard!
In her life, I just gotta picture her smiling,
And if you feel that way, go ahead and kiss your baby!
Now we've got the whole stadium in love like, eh eh eh eh
Homie kiss your girl!
Shawty kiss your man!
We can see you on the kissin' cam!
Please show me some love!
Show me some love!
Now look her in the eye, see baby I love you,
I never put no one above you!
And if you feel that way,
Go ahead and kiss your baby!
And now we've got the whole stadium in love like... eh eh eh eh!
And if you feel that way,
Go ahead and kiss your baby!
And now we've got the whole stadium in love like... !
Eh, eh, eh, eh!
Oh, oh, oh

Happy ending.

Everybody has a tough period in life. But it doesn't really matter afterwards because with time, every wound heals.

Happy ending - MIKA
This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life
Can't get no love without sacrifice
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

2 o'clock in the morning, something's on my mind
Can't get no rest; keep walkin' around
If I pretend that nothin' ever went wrong, I can get to my sleep
I can think that we just carried on

This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, no love, no glory
Happy endings gone forever more
I feel as if I'm wasted
And I'm wastin' every day[repeated under]

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.


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